We’re not dealing with a normal case, Ryuki! It’s not like a systematic killer who has an M.O. and leaves behind similar evidence or has a staple, signature way of killing. We’re going in blind every week with no idea what we’re going to find, and we have our backs against the wall because we know we’re on the world’s most ridiculous time limit with the worst penalty available if we figure it out or even if we don’t!
[ …. she sighs. ]
No, we’re not meant to get it wrong. And I’m hoping we never do again, because that week was a mess and maybe this week served to hammer that home even harder. And I’m not saying we move on, but driving yourself to the point of despair focusing on what we did wrong will only narrow your field of vision.
It’s balance. And we need that here. It’s knowing what we did wrong and knowing what we did right and making sure we change or replicate what works and what doesn’t. And… I know people will want to protect the people they care about. I know people won’t want to condemn someone they love. But, this week wouldn’t have happened if we’d had done better that second week.
[ or maybe people will double down. she doesn’t know. ]
… But I don’t know if it would’ve been better if we had. This is all just designed to hurt us.
Are you mad at the people who looked away from the truth in that second trial?
I talked to Mr. Reigen. About whether what Adlet said was true or not, and heard his side of the story. I was right to be suspicious about his cigarettes showing up on the toxicology report, Tama. He killed Yae Miko.
Isn't that funny, Tama? [ He says, finding it absolutely not funny at all. ] I told him if that many people believed in him then there must be something good in him that everyone is seeing.
After the fact, I wondered if we’d got the wrong idea with the cage and the fencing. We jumped to something cruel, but what if he was trying to keep her locked up so she couldn’t kill him? And then maybe no one would have to die. Not that it worked out that way.
People care about him. I understand that. But I struggle when it comes to caring about him to the point of condemning someone else because they ‘don’t like them’. That’s not justice. If someone did that for me, I’d be furious.
[ she frowns, and it’s a little bitter ] I wish people had moved on and kept looking, instead of doubling down on defending him. That we’d been more systematic. Then maybe we could’ve found who killed Satan — but would we have liked that answer? Maybe it would’ve been worse.
[ … ]
If this were a video game, we could at least reload and try again.
[ The endless rabbit hole of seeking the truth. Ryuki did that once, chased down every lead he could find in desperation -- and what'd it get him beyond an endless trip, down memories and alcoholism. ]
[ I did actually say he just disassociates tf out and misses execution that way so I guess this is happening. He is completely wigged out for the entire duration of execution. ]
she’s bundling him in blankets like ok how to get a heavily disassociating man back to his dorm and tucked into bed where he will be cosy? this is her goal now.
[ You want that post-execution one after all or do we just want to wait until Monday anyway. I feel like he'd just fall over if you try to move him but hey, he'll come back to sometime after execution and she can move him then. ]
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[ …. she sighs. ]
No, we’re not meant to get it wrong. And I’m hoping we never do again, because that week was a mess and maybe this week served to hammer that home even harder. And I’m not saying we move on, but driving yourself to the point of despair focusing on what we did wrong will only narrow your field of vision.
It’s balance. And we need that here. It’s knowing what we did wrong and knowing what we did right and making sure we change or replicate what works and what doesn’t. And… I know people will want to protect the people they care about. I know people won’t want to condemn someone they love. But, this week wouldn’t have happened if we’d had done better that second week.
[ or maybe people will double down. she doesn’t know. ]
… But I don’t know if it would’ve been better if we had. This is all just designed to hurt us.
Are you mad at the people who looked away from the truth in that second trial?
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I talked to Mr. Reigen. About whether what Adlet said was true or not, and heard his side of the story. I was right to be suspicious about his cigarettes showing up on the toxicology report, Tama. He killed Yae Miko.
Isn't that funny, Tama? [ He says, finding it absolutely not funny at all. ] I told him if that many people believed in him then there must be something good in him that everyone is seeing.
It feels... stupid. It's like a video game twist.
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After the fact, I wondered if we’d got the wrong idea with the cage and the fencing. We jumped to something cruel, but what if he was trying to keep her locked up so she couldn’t kill him? And then maybe no one would have to die. Not that it worked out that way.
People care about him. I understand that. But I struggle when it comes to caring about him to the point of condemning someone else because they ‘don’t like them’. That’s not justice. If someone did that for me, I’d be furious.
[ she frowns, and it’s a little bitter ] I wish people had moved on and kept looking, instead of doubling down on defending him. That we’d been more systematic. Then maybe we could’ve found who killed Satan — but would we have liked that answer? Maybe it would’ve been worse.
[ … ]
If this were a video game, we could at least reload and try again.
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What if we can?
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[ literally just the tag. ]
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>says some wacky shit
>doesn't elabourate
>disassociates ]
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Hey!
[ she’s smooshing his cheeks immediately. like leaning over to grab his face and squish. ] Ryuki!
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she’s bundling him in blankets like ok how to get a heavily disassociating man back to his dorm and tucked into bed where he will be cosy? this is her goal now.
thank god for opposable thumbs ]
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she’s going to half carry him like a sad sack of potatoes. ]