that's fine, when nimona realizes tama is chasing her she lets out a feral little noise and jumps, and turns into a little pink fox, trying to run faster.
but for the sake of not being annoying about threading, there's only so far she can go before she's blocked off from running further, so she just. stops.]
she runs at the little pink fox!!!!!!!!! to hug her. she's just dropping down and she'll take scrabbling claws or whatever, foxmona is just getting the biggest hug. ]
she actually reacts like she's frightened, at first. like tama is going to hurt her, or something. but when she gets a hug instead, she freezes, going stiff.
this isn't... it's not how people react. she didn't ever want anybody to see her this way, she didn't want tama to see that rotten part, to know how lonely she is.
but tama hugs her. and nimona just - shifts back into a girl shape, and reaches to hold tama's arm, tight and desperate.]
tama just keeps her arms tight and nimona close, even if she's trying to back up or scrabble away until the realisation she's not going to be hurt kicks in. she doesn't let go, even when she feels nimona's form change into something more like what she's used to. she just shifts her hand to stroke the back of her head gently. ]
[it's kind of just exhausted crying, really. this one has popped up a few times, and having to live it over and over again is taking a toll.
but tama rocks her, and tama doesn't go anywhere, and - while it takes a bit, she does calm down eventually, bringing her arms up to hug tama in return.
finally, wet and wobbly:] ... This is embarrassing.
[that makes her laugh, but it's kind of just a hiccuppy laugh.]
... I guess. [that makes her feel better about it. she can't really articulate why she's embarrassed other than she just thinks she looks lame because she's so lonely.]
[ ... she shakes her head. ] Sometimes you're just unlucky, and you're surrounded by a lot of people who just suck. Or will treat you the same way so you repeat the same cycle and it wears you down.
[comic panels be like bam here's some info you probably weren't ready to share yet
but it's fine, she kind of... suspected? not like this, not to this extent, but ryuki said something to her a week ago that made her pause. she doesn't let go, because it's not like this changes anything about the way nimona feels about her.
[ comic panels be like we have a job to do dammit.
miss tama the AI. at this point i, personally, have given up not using her ai-ball icons on main because they’re too funny. ]
…
[ she laughs. ]
We’re pretty advanced, secret tech honestly. [ still hugging nimona though all this. ] But— well. I’ve never been alone, because I’ve always had Ryuki. But outside of Ryuki and a few others, we’re not exactly known to people. There’s a lot of people I’ve met and worry about who don’t know I exist.
[she has not let go and refuses to. tama is safe, and she won't admit it, but she needs that.]
I wish you'd gotten to tell me yourself. Instead of me seeing it. [if tama would ever, but - past that.] I don't think I've ever known anybody like you.
I think it's become harder to not really talk about it, even if we probably were avoiding it at first out of habit. Although not many people have actually asked me why my item has the same name as me and why I'm carrying an eye around.
[ one person, actually. ]
Well, sure. I'm not unique, but I'm definitely a rarity. There's a couple of other AI-Balls in ABIS -- but only one Tama.
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imagine if i was like no she walks right past it and never comes back. no, she does touch it — mostly out of curiosity. ]
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anyway, the scroll sparkles pink, and then - like the pages of a story book, a flash of memories come up and plays in front of her.]
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ALSO
NOOO BABY GIRL. ]
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i'm sorry about this]
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that's fine, when nimona realizes tama is chasing her she lets out a feral little noise and jumps, and turns into a little pink fox, trying to run faster.
but for the sake of not being annoying about threading, there's only so far she can go before she's blocked off from running further, so she just. stops.]
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she runs at the little pink fox!!!!!!!!! to hug her. she's just dropping down and she'll take scrabbling claws or whatever, foxmona is just getting the biggest hug. ]
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she actually reacts like she's frightened, at first. like tama is going to hurt her, or something. but when she gets a hug instead, she freezes, going stiff.
this isn't... it's not how people react. she didn't ever want anybody to see her this way, she didn't want tama to see that rotten part, to know how lonely she is.
but tama hugs her. and nimona just - shifts back into a girl shape, and reaches to hold tama's arm, tight and desperate.]
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tama just keeps her arms tight and nimona close, even if she's trying to back up or scrabble away until the realisation she's not going to be hurt kicks in. she doesn't let go, even when she feels nimona's form change into something more like what she's used to. she just shifts her hand to stroke the back of her head gently. ]
You're okay, I've got you.
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she starts to cry.]
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but tama rocks her, and tama doesn't go anywhere, and - while it takes a bit, she does calm down eventually, bringing her arms up to hug tama in return.
finally, wet and wobbly:] ... This is embarrassing.
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I don't think there's anything especially embarrassing about it.
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... I guess. [that makes her feel better about it. she can't really articulate why she's embarrassed other than she just thinks she looks lame because she's so lonely.]
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...
You deserve better than that, Nimona. I don't really know if you know that, but if you need telling, you can trust me to tell you the truth.
[ she deals with ryuki and all of his self doubts daily. she'd do this for ryuki. she'll do the same for nimona. ]
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... I wanna feel like I do. [she says, finally.] I think I do. I just... when you can never get it right, you have to be the problem, right?
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[ ... she shakes her head. ] Sometimes you're just unlucky, and you're surrounded by a lot of people who just suck. Or will treat you the same way so you repeat the same cycle and it wears you down.
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I'm tired of the cycle. [it just happens again and again and again.]
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well. she just hugs her tighter at that--
and i think this might be a good time to show her a memory. the comic panels just shoving their way in there i guess. ]
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but it's fine, she kind of... suspected? not like this, not to this extent, but ryuki said something to her a week ago that made her pause. she doesn't let go, because it's not like this changes anything about the way nimona feels about her.
a pause, and then:] That's pretty cool, actually.
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miss tama the AI. at this point i, personally, have given up not using her ai-ball icons on main because they’re too funny. ]
…
[ she laughs. ]
We’re pretty advanced, secret tech honestly. [ still hugging nimona though all this. ] But— well. I’ve never been alone, because I’ve always had Ryuki. But outside of Ryuki and a few others, we’re not exactly known to people. There’s a lot of people I’ve met and worry about who don’t know I exist.
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I wish you'd gotten to tell me yourself. Instead of me seeing it. [if tama would ever, but - past that.] I don't think I've ever known anybody like you.
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[ one person, actually. ]
Well, sure. I'm not unique, but I'm definitely a rarity. There's a couple of other AI-Balls in ABIS -- but only one Tama.
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[a beat.] Me too. Kind of. [...] Only one Nimona.
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